Panic
Posted by: icagirl on: October 24, 2007
Panic is irrational. I know this… and yet. I have all these things going on right now, all of which are troublesome at best. And normally, I’ll admit I can be a drama creator, but I honestly didn’t create any of these things, which is probably what makes them so troubling. I have no control over the outcome and until today, I was fine. Really, I was. Until about ten minutes ago. Panic edged in to one of the things I’m thinking about. From there, it spread to everything else…
I was supposed to go out tonight. At this point, I don’t see that happening. Tonight involves a lot of socializing with a lot of different ladies. And I know if I go, I’ll end up dumping this huge pile of panic on someone else. Not wise. Best to keep it maintained until the situations are resolved, or at least, further along. By Monday, more clarity will be available.
4 Responses to "Panic"
October 24, 2007 at 11:35 am
panic is, indeed, irrational. but it’s also so damn scary BECAUSE you feel as if you’ve lost control. which you have. of your emotions.
did i tell you about the time i worked at liberty travel for one month? near the end of the month, i started panicking and, one day, i had worked myself up so much that i ended up cleaning out my cube — unbeknownst to anyone else in the office — and sneaking out mid-day.
god we’re such crazy-makers.
October 24, 2007 at 11:33 pm
Well, I’m better today. After talking to and e-mailing my Uncle (the east side of his town was evacuated yesterday because of the fires in Southern CA) I felt better. He is ready to evacuate his house if needed, which is good, and he sounds okay even considering what’s going on, so I think I just needed to talk to him – and that was the big thing. So, today, I’ll keep watching the news and praying for everyone involved.
October 24, 2007 at 3:41 am
I’m not going to do what you all think I’m going to do…